Some Poems

by Catipillar Girl

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she stands alone...

looking out the window...
of the castle...
they had once shared...
she looks into the night...
knowing...
she will not see him coming home again...

turning...
she walks down the stairway...
with but one candle lighting...
her dark path...
which she walks alone...

no words...
no sounds...
no expression...

walking out in the midnight air...
pulls up the hood of her black cloak...
and walks through the meadow...
stopping and sitting were they once had...
looking up at the moon...
remembering how they promised...
to discover things together...
then remembers studying his face...
every feature...
line...
curve...
of that beautifully handsome face...
she closes her eyes as she imagines...
smiles...
and shudders at the realization...
as she opens her eyes...
he is not there...

silently she gets up...
and continues to walk...
this cold night...
alone...

making her way through the trees...
the only sound is the rushing waterfall...
everything is still...
but the dependable falling of the water..
standing there...
she remembers the dances they shared...
the wonders of his body...
the way he made her feel...
so special...
so wanted...
so needed...
so craved...
so desired...

so loved...

every movement of every dance...
runs through her mind...
yet she is still expressionless...
mmm...

how she misses him...
his feel...
his body...
his words...

his sweet words...
and his promise...
even though it was of joy...
he promised she had shed her last tear...
her single tear...

and now...
those words are broken...
and with the utmost felt pain...
of sorrow...
and loneliness again...

one tear drop falls...
and she stands alone...

sometimes...

sometimes in the night...
i cry...
thinking of you...
why was i so blessed to have a friend such as you...

sometimes in the night...
i cry...
remembering you...
wondering why you left without words...

sometimes in the night...
i sing...
seductive songs...
that remind me of how it feels being with you...

sometimes in the night...
i sing...
sad songs..
that break my heart just the way you did...

sometimes in the night...
i ponder...
our life..
how sweet the taste of a future is to be with you...

sometimes at night...
i create...
our life...
of what it could have been...

sometimes at night...
i live...
you near my side...
our nakedness, love and blissful passion...

sometimes at night...
i die...
you are not there...
and the emptiness is too painful...

forever in the night...
the tears...
whisper...
i love you...

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and so she pleads...
arms closed against her chest...
tears falling steadily ...
as it paints the lonliness on her face...
seclusion...
her thoughts running wildly...
words of others incompassing her mind...
utter sobbing...
darkness of a lightless day...
a candle...
flickering ...
dancing it's life away...

an instrument...
of death...
placed into the flesh...
poison seeping through the skin...
and she stares...
as the candle melts to nothing...

shaking...
tears muliplying...
falling faster ...
trembling...
loss of control...

and she lays...
cradled in her own arms...
body suffering in pain...

watches quietly...
intensly...
the flames final dances...
the last struggle to stay lit...

her final struggle to scream...
breathless...
pointless...
but no one can hear...

eyes fall shut...
candle extinguishes...
silence...

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